Thursday 10 January 2013

The Way had found me with its first step.




I'd been trying for long right from the day of birth,
In the norm of the society to be the best that I could be I longed,
To please my family and friends I ever dared,
To please myself too I attempted,
To make a path that I would walk on till the end I purposed,
Not until the Way found me with its first step.

I believed I was right for I 'kept' to my self made path,
I tried my best in my deeds and my works,
My family and friends thought I did it right,
I knew from within me though that life was beyond all I knew,
I kept trying every single day to do that which is good,
Not until the Way found me with its first step.

I wondered why after all the effort I never had it all,
Was hard that which I longed to do, while all I longed not to do was easy,
I searched from within and from without and never had an answer,
All I saw was the bold sign: GIVE UP and SURRENDER;
Glowing it was as the words shone on me but how would they mean success?
Not until the Way found me with its first step.

I longed to make it in these world standards,
I knew not though what would be next after making it,
I reached a point of counting it all vanity not sure why I existed,
I saw my hard work grow daily even as my earthly knowledge increased,
Equally though, grew my pain as my frustrations multiplied,
Not until the Way found me with its first step.

Sat down with all my entirety gathered within me I closed my eyes,
I did not want to go back yet I had nothing to move forward to,
I lost control of my ever controlled self yet someone else had taken charge,
A mixed feeling filling my heart and soul in an amazing way,
The King carrying the cross and the sign: GIVE UP and SURRENDER appeared,
I knew the Way had found me with its first step.

The Way came to me and opened my eyes like a flash of a lightening,
All at once I saw my fallen nature right before me and before Him,
I could not utter a word for I stood condemned in the deep conviction,
I truly knew I was a helpless wreck facing eternal death,
I looked at myself and discovered I was kneeling and my hands were up in surrender,
I knew the Way had found me with its first step.

Tears flew from the inmost of my being as God's divine power worked on me,
From behind I could hear the painful cries of torment and the heat was too much,
The ground that held me started sinking and my fear grew the more,
The King made the step towards me and spreading his bleeding hand held mine tight,
He in a deep wealth of kindness made an offer to me to repent of my sins,
I knew the Way had found me with its first step.

I felt from the innermost of my heart and soul the sincerity of his love,
The whole world was covered with sin apart from the area he stood,
The area bore the words GRACE written with the blood flowing from his wounds,
I started confessing my sins and repented before my Savoir and King,
And in the faith that was springing from him to me I gave up my all to Him,
I knew the Way had found me with its first step.

He embraced me with His all and I became a new creation,
As His blood continued to flow onto me so were the sins being washed away,
He; the truth had brought the Way, shone the Light and given me the Life,
 He showed me a path I had always by-passed and now by it I daily walk with him,
He gave me an assurance for eternity and a mission to humanity,
I knew the Way had found me with its first step.

He got hold of my hand and started writing my new life story with me,
No friend could give what he gave, his all that I may have the Jesus Hope,
Out of love he came for the prodigal me and reconciled me back to God as son,
In Him have I put all my trust for no other hope could see me through like His,
His Father purposed it; He did it and the Holy Spirit Sustains my Salvation,
I knew the Way had found me with its first step.

Daily I struggle to remain faithful to Him yet no day has my help call gone unanswered,
To Love the Father with all my soul, heart, mind and strength only by his grace I do it,
To neighbors too  He points me in the great commission to share his love to all the nations,
Though the desires of self and the fear of others surround me, Jesus' hope remains my focus,
I've found my life's purpose in doing his will; his mission in me set the path I now walk on,
I knew the Way had found me with its first step.

Newton Gatambia. 10/01/2013.

#H4WinJC.

 


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